Sorry Son, You Just Used Your Last Lifeline

But hey, life can treat you like that sometimes.
You think that you have everything going for you
When you hit the big time and exchange brains for cash,
But you have to be present to do so.

The only exchange you ever did was your life for something much lower.

Oh, God, you cause me great grief.  It's eternal suffering on earth.
However, I’m not worthy of feeling such emotion since I knew you so little.
All I know about you is what not to do in the future.

Every time I put my brain on the line with buzzer near fingers,
Anticipation running up and down the nervous system
Awaiting the next question to be answered with rapid speed,
I think of you in my place.
It’s scary as hell to follow in your steps by accident.

But then, the cross-fade occurs and other things appear in focus.

I can remember hearing statistics.
Broken college essays.
Distorted love			(I’m sorry, dear)
Brushes with law
Hallow shell filled with alcohol and falsified family love

In spite of all things, I’m not angry with you.  But riddle me this,
Was it great to soar only to end up landing into the sea?

Date of First Draft: 31 January 2000

prev * TOC * next

home